Wednesday, February 9, 2011 / 10:34 PM
Dependant. Helplessly so.

I don't think it I'll be lying if I say I feel so guilty towards them right now.
Maybe guilt isn't the right word.
I just miss them. So much.
And I miss how I used to be all over them.
I'm just kinda turning into a closet TripleS.
I guess you could tell, if you look at me on Twitter, life in general.
You'd see HHS everywhere.
Yeah its true I adore him like, like I don't even know anymore.
But everytime I just look at the five of them, the word forever tugs at my mind. It's not really a choice, its like a duty. Not one I would shy away from.
But sometimes I just miss them so much there's like this void. And I fill it up by turning to HHS. He distracts me, enough to forget that there was a time when all five of them were there in their spots so blindingly perfect together.
Don't get me wrong. I still love all of them each individually as much as I ever have. Just that... it kinda sucks to feel even for a little bit (no matter how insignificant) that the backing that I've been depending on is wavering.
I don't like throwing the word "forever" around.
Lets face it, there's a high possibility that one day I'll leave behind the TripleS part of my life. I don't know when that'll be, I don't think nor do I hope it is anytime soon. I'd want it to last as long as it can, and sometimes blind faith is the only way to get as close to forever as one ever can.
I'm just... I'm sorry.
But I couldn't leave even if I wanted to.
Because if there ever was one word to describe them.
It'd be unbelievable.
(:
all the projects are coming in already.
hwaiting, hwaiting, hwaiting.
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