Sunday, October 10, 2010 / 12:49 AM
Twitter floods me with SS501.
And really, it just makes me miss them more.
Cassies have JYJ, Hottest have 6 members. ELFs have 10.
Fanwars happen all the time, it isn't something to be bothered by y'know.
I hated haters who hated. But I realised that haters turned fangirls were worse.
Then I got over that POV, and started to understand what jump off the bandwagon meant. It doesn't mean you don't agree to stuff about that fandom, it just means formulating your own opinions, and it doesn't matter if it happens to be what everyone thinks -or not.
I don't know how that links to what I wanted to say though.
Maybe because I'm afraid that I'm losing SS501.
Because I don't get excited over them anymore, not like before. My chest doesn't expand with unimaginable respect, love, adoration like it used to. Neither is it happening to Gui, but I guess I mind it more when it's happening to 501.
I wasn't all over them like other TripleS, and I wondered if I was slowly, but unknowingly leaving the fandom just because I didn't
feel the same way, like them, anymore.Then I realised that it doesn't matter, because I know I would be there. If they held a concert, came back together as one years in the future. I wouldn't miss it for the world. I may not feel the boomboom I used to, but I wouldn't ever want to leave TripleS.
I'm so proud of TripleS, I don't know what to say. I'm so proud to be part of TripleS, that green sea. Other fandoms respect TripleS because we hardly get involved in fanwars. They see how we're standing by each individual member despite everything's thats been going on.
People see how we support them.Everytime I see someone praising TripleS, I see it as we're doing it for the boys. Because of TripleS (even if partly), SS501 doesn't get hate. They hardly have antis. It's the least we could do for them.
Pardon the grammar
I don't feel like how I did when I look at them, not right now.
But this has happened before, and I know that I wouldn't ever be able to leave.
Thats the only thing that's comforting me right now. That I know I wouldn't stop believing, stop standing by. And I won't be the only one.
I'm losing the fangirl fandom, but I'm not losing the faith.
The zzzng may be gone, but my heart won't stop beating.
I have no idea where this post is coming from.
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