Sunday, August 29, 2010 / 11:23 PM
I feel so guilty,
It was awesome, it was mindblowingly incredible, to see Baby.
The Baby, My Baby, Our Baby. SS501's magnae. Our magnae.
I mean, yeah he was tall he was hot, he was everything of that. And he was indescribably cute.
But really, the most amazing thing of today was what I realised when I felt what I felt when I saw him.
My mind raced, all the way
back to the very first times I came to know about 501. When I first started watching their shows, first started listening to their songs. I felt that raw, instinctive kind of love and protectiveness when I saw him and proceeded to think of the other members. I remembered what it felt like to have no one but the five of them in my life. No one else important enough, to make me so extremely emotionally attached and attuned to their every move.
I realised how I regret neglecting them these 2 months or so, when they needed the most support from TripleS. I said all those bull about me standing by them, but I know it was all just words. Honestly, I kind of regret coming to know of Gui. But, yeah Gui's important too. But,
I realised -again- how much they meant to me. How much I'm dependant on them to have something to believe in. With startling conviction, I realised that what they were to me could
never be replaced. Gui could never compare. I mean. Like seriously, okay. Gosh.
They're at the top, the pinnacle. In an instant, suddenly no one else mattered. Not 2PM, not UKISS, not SHINee.
There's only SS501. And XG.
It's an oath, I could never break from it. Even if I tried.
TripleS, SS501.
Irreplaceable, incomparable, indescribable.
The word 'idol' would be an insult used on them.
They're so much more than that. All five.
Kim KyuJong, Heo YoungSaeng, Kim HyungJun, Kim HyunJoong, Park JungMin.
all five are the precious ones.
I don't know when I would come to this conclusion if it weren't for Baby today.
It was, emotional. Everything just came rushing into my head and I just had to get everything I felt all down.
It was like falling in love all over again.
Kyu's the love of my life. The definition of my heart.
Without a doubt.
People have their forever and always'.
I count myself lucky to have 6 men as my forever and always'.
(i teared up more than once today D: )
sssshh, but 2 in particular of course.
kimkyujongalienhuang.
Okay, now I've got that off my chest.
IT WAS SO FUCKING AWESOME OH MY GOD.
He's tall, he has the skin of a freaking snow angel's. He's so funny and so random. So retarded yet so adorable. He's so good to the fans, an absolute angel. It was one of the best nights of my life. Even without all the perks of a $180 ticket.
I just wish it were all five of them.
But still. HE ROLLED DOWN THE WINDOW AND WAVED AND DID A SPASTIC HANDS-IN-THE-AIR. AND I SAW EVERYTHING SO CLOSE. OMG. EYE CONTACT!
Sighh. Today was fuckingly awesome.
And I'll just sit here twiddling my thumbs and wait for the Kyu to come.
Gui in 5 days.
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