Friday, August 27, 2010 / 11:06 PM
在我转身之后 你却又抱著我;
The article in epop. I kinda have mixed emotions towards it.
It's brought me back down to earth.
I mean, I've always known its kinda stupid to idolise. Especially someone like him. Someone who doesn't have the perfect image like kpop artistes. Someone whom I recognise and accept all his flaws.
I've always known that what we see isn't what he actually is all the time. But after the kpop with the singers who basically blare out the message that they're all perfect people, it's weird to have him blatently state that its all bullshit. Hahah, not that I don't like this fact. I know its true.
And you know what. I think one of the necessities other artistes I know have to have, is that constant appeal they have to their fans. The attraction that knows no ends. For kpop, even for Show. They keep their fans dreaming, hoping, wanting?
But he's different. I know where to stop. I know where's too far gone. All because he's just...different. I never think too much regarding him. I don't want him so bad that I close my eyes to the fact that it'll never ever happen.
Never do I imagine shit like what I did with kpop. Even if I did, it was all in good fun. He gives off this sense of being so close to my heart, yet so far from what I ever imagined.
A whole new definition of so near yet so far? Hmm. I don't really know how to explain this. Ohwell.
我没有放过，没有错过也没有后悔过.
I want to be like him. I really do. And I guess, thats all that it comes down to? When he grows old and stuff. This would be what sets him apart. I guess. <3
501 isn't considered a fandom anymore, is it? They're, I do not know how to explain.
yay, he makes me feel like this. all fuzzy wuzzy. But it's all weird now cos of that article.I like being a fangirl of only one person.
Last week of school. :/ Loads of work. 2 PTs and another History AA coming up. Zuowen and compre to be done by Monday. This is so screwed.
Nevermind.
7 more weeks till my last paper's over and done with. And then. I'm a free man/girl.
As for now, Teacher's Day next Wed.
Okay, sho. I'll be going out with KM/SC on Tuesday. Watching Step Up 3 I think? I hope. I want to watch it in 3D!
Staying home on Wednesday.
I was thinking it'll be one of the only days I can come up with my fanboard design. Plus write my letter. And I'll have to stuff that into the time I have to chiong my Lit PT
which I haven't started on.
I have this really kind of retarded idea for my fanboard to be epic. But I don't think I'll have the guts to do it in the end.
After Thursday, I'm gonna cancel my Lit PT off my growing list of things-to-do. And I'll be happy. Friday and Saturday and Sunday shall be my happy days. Very very happy days.
Though I'm gonna be broke -again.
Finished taking the photos for my Aesthetics PT yesterday already. So now I just have to wait for Vic to send over the pictures and I can do up my PT blog really simply and type out rubbish for Mrs Willamme to be happy with me and I'll be happy too.
I don't understand why I have so many things to do when he's coming so soon.
Lemme count. 8 days.
Sigh.
I don't know if I want to go back to NYPS. TBH, I find it
kind of pointless. And I don't really want to go back. But if I don't, I'll feel guilty. D:
Maaaann.
I can't think of anything substantial to post about.
I look at Qian's blog for inspiration, and I see fangirling.
Makes me wonder.
Labels: QIAN, saranghaeyo, school
