Tuesday, August 17, 2010 / 10:14 PM
愛得不知好歹;
My North, my South, my East and West;
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song.
Sorry Nic I didn't mean that your blog wasn't worth reading.
So, insensitive. Gosh. I mean, does it make sense for us to throw our friend in the toilet when she's having bad cramps? How would he feel like if he got kicked in the balls and his friends told him to
"JIAYOU OKAY! We go PE first."
and ditching him in the toilet? It does not make sense. At all. And he cannot just try to understand how it's awkward for us to tell him that it was specifically "menstrual cramps" and NOT a normal stomachache.
Nobody gives a shit about his impression of us, not after he showed us how un-understanding and insensitive he is. "First case of truancy in 5 years."
Oh his poor dignified soul. Put down by 3 students. Pitiful.
Men can be so ignorant and insensitive.
I realised today, how fun Geog actually is.
Maybe fun isn't the right word. Easy to digest.
I did my work copying the textbook. And as I read, I understood.
Better than those attempts at paying attention. I end up falling asleep, without fail. And she'd look at me with those eyeballs rolling, as she always does.
I don't like teachers disliking me. Not that I'm a pet, but it doesn't feel good to be put into a set frame in the teacher's eyes. I can't not care, because I'd know I don't deserve whatever treatment I'm getting. It isn't fun, to be cursing and swearing behind her back either.
I may have done some shit to land me in those horrid situations. But really, is it a mere one-sided game? Of antagonising and disapprove? Teachers gossip, like I care. But honestly, the constant pinpointing and glares of suspicion gets on my nerves.
Captain's Ball IHG got cancelled thanks to the rain. And I don't know if its a good or bad thing. Hahahaha we were getting pretty badly crushed by Richardson. Thanks to nicoleashleysoepranoto. :DD So fail luh. But not bad, all Bucklians were from 110 (Y)
And IHG actually serves a purpose. As in, today was one of the only times I acknowledged my house. Ever since House Prac, I honestly haven't even looked at my house tee. And it was, fun? (:
Oh well, I'm applying for HouseComm. It's the only committee I have any hope at all of getting into. Selection for JPSL's only through selection. And I don't think I have a good enough reputation to be chosen for something like that. Roles like that are reserved for overachievers with amazing attitude.
Have I mentioned how much I fucking hate the school's system. Gah RG D:
Remember in one post, I mentioned something like "I was only 10, ......"?
I'm not comforted by the fact that I probably didn't know what real stress was back then. Rather than thinking that the pressure wasn't much, it's scary to imagine how much worse it'd get. As we go on to JC, then university, then our working lives. Some have their lives laid out in front of them, paths clearly marked out.
You could say that having no idea right now shows a choice we still have. A part we can have in deciding our own futures.
But the uncertainty and self-doubt in this forkroad might just outweigh the confines and limitations of a path set by expectations. Better still, if you have no doubt in your mind that the road ahead's
the one for you, for sure.You have no idea how much I envy those people. D:
I swear, I was thinking of more things than this today.
I just, can't remember what. Argh. Would a notebook help.
Hahahahahah SAS is the love. The convo's making me laugh shit :DD
都怪我 偏偏要去愛, 偏偏要等待
偏偏幻想我會是例外
-壞了, 張芸京
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