Tuesday, August 3, 2010 / 9:28 PM
講真的, 我想要呼救;
I'm going to the airport, I'm going to the hotel, I'm going to the showcase.
It's only for 3 days.
3 precious days, when I'll be with him, figuratively. And, no matter if it won't matter to him if I'm there or not. He doesn't need to know I'm there.
I just need to know that he's there. That he's real.
And that it matters so much to me, that I have him in my life.
百分百, 你突然冒出了一句, “你相信奇迹吗？”
我很不以为然地说, "不信."
但如果说世界上没有奇迹.
那又怎么解释, 你出现在我生命里 这不可思议的现象?
你活着, 你存在着, 这美妙的事实.
而我, 会有这机会见识你的优点, 你的缺点, 你所让我们看到的一切.
虽然不是你的所有. 但你给我们的, 已远远超过我期待的黄鸿升.
Okay, so, I'm almost done with my Geog PT. (Y) I mean, yeah so people have been handing multiple drafts already, while I haven't passed her even one. But still. And cher doesn't like me anyway, there's no point in trying to please her by handing in so many drafts.
Haha, I'm aware that how well I do doesn't affect her. And my attitude towards her wouldn't be helping me in school. But I really cannot be bothered. Oh maaaann I'm going to fail Geog.
I really have to get back good results this time. ._. Only if I get good enough results will my mother not kick up too big of a fuss over me going for Gui's showcase. Technically, I'm not allowed to go if I get back screwed marks. But I really don't think her wrath is enough to stand between me and my stupid little Ghost♥
Okay with my Show
obsession out of the way, I won't be getting too hyped up over a potential 舞法舞天 Part II.
And I'm saying it like a bad thing.
It isn't, really. Just that, I'm not really sad over losing the obsession over him. Cos I knew from the start that it was alot to do with the first time I was struck with his good looks. Even though I love his personality, it just doesn't compare.
What did I have to post about?
Right,
school. I have nothing to say about my school.
Like, honestly? I'm not exactly happy.
I'm not sad either,
sort of like in a limbo.
Where I'm not upset at anything.
But there's just nothing to be happy over. Or excited over.
Nothing to look forward to.
Friends in secondary school, are hard to make.
I have this problem, which I'm not sure lies in me, or her.
Probably both.
Frankly speaking, there are others who share my opinion.
But I don't hate you. Yes, you.
I'm not upset, I'm not angry, I just cannot comprehend why you do some things sometimes. And I just, don't understand you sometimes. Like, you become someone else.
And hellyeah I don't like that side of you.
But it's you, isn't it.
It's part of you. Part of the person I made friends with.
And whatever problems I have, I'm gonna have to suck it up, wouldn't I?
Because it's you. And I know I don't want to lose you.
.
School now really holds no point, in my opinion.
I mean, you do shit not relevant to your life. Or your future, in any conceivable ways. I mean, History serves no purpose.
And
do not get me started on how pointless Geog.
It's just, one day after another.
The days blending into the next. [Oh gosh, how cliche.]
Why else would it suddenly be August already?
4 more weeks, till he comes. Till the term ends.
For a week, at least, I don't have to breath in that indescribable smell in 110's classroom.
(I don't know if I'd miss it or treat it as good riddance)
And then it'll be back to another Week 1.
But after the EYAs,
I can't imagineeee.
RG can go and screw itself and die then I wouldn't give two shits cos I've finished my first year and it's only gonna get worse and I don't want that to happen and it would be much easier for me if it just died and I wouldn't have to go through something like this year another 3 more times yeah so kthxbai.
