Tuesday, June 22, 2010 / 10:22 PM
你說淚留著很危險 ;
I don't know.
I mean, yeah. The holidays are over. And I'm having mixed emotions about it I guess.
Didn't expect it to pass by so quickly. And here I am, one week away from the Math paper.
Considering, this holiday has been fruitful. I've done my History PT, 2/3 of my Chem assignment though it's due, soon. And revision for History and Geog. Not nearly enough for the papers, but its something.
Oh, and I've really spammed on Gui and Show. And realised some other things about my life and who/what's important along the way.
The realisation that I really want to do well enough for myself to be happy with my results, shocking. I don't want to, yeah. I don't want to disappoint myself anymore. Not in my results, not in my CCA. Not like last year. No, not again.
And it'll seem hypocritical saying all that, wouldn't it. When I've been slacking almost the whole holiday away. Gosh.
So, I have one week till Math.
And I'm planning on spending a week on each subject before the paper. So. Geog and History on the Wednesday of second week. I'll start the final revision on Thursday. Since I've already started.
And Lit and Chinese Compo's on 3rd week's Wednesday. The compo's gonna have to start earlier. Maybe on the previous Tuesday. Lit? Ohmytian. I'm gonna have to rush home after Geog and History to read the damned book again. And get to know Jonas all over again.
Honestly, Jonas is a fag. And the Giver's a hobo.
Yes. For the next three weeks from tomorrow onwards, my life includes nothing but schoolwork. Okay, fine. 20% of Ghost, and 501, and Show, and U-Kiss. Cos I'm on a U-Kiss streak right now.
But, mmhmmm, priorities given to my results. Definitely.
Three weeks, there's nothing to it.
I'm gonna have to believe I can do it, no other way(:
Three weeks, and then I can go back to him. And him. And them.
They're gonna have to share my life with RGS though. But thats okay.
Shopping.
Something I've picked up in RG. Mostly thanks to Nicole. But yeah, it's getting to me. I've gotten, what, 5 new shorts in a real short period of time, 2 pairs of jeans. And 2 shirts. Heh, I remember when I'd just get 3 sets of new clothes and the beginning of the year and it'd last me the whole year.
I have to admit though, being in an all girl's school really does help. So does being in a tuition centre where they seperate us into schools.
No, boys.
A distraction, thats what they are. Especially if you end up crushing on one.
I've read random blogs, with girls our age having a 18 year old stead. And it's just, I'm not saying that they're wrong. But I can see that it's really distracting to have a stead like that.
Even a serious crush is enough to take your breath away, remove everything else from your mind.
I don't think I'd want any of that.
Alien/Ghost/Gui is all I want, and Kyu is all I need. Nobody else matters enough.
In other words, I won't ever get hurt. Yes, Gui and Kyu will never hurt me. Cos, well, obvious reasons. Nobody's getting the power to tear me into two, not for a long time to come.
And there's my day, gone. Just like every day in June 2010. Sigh.
I've come up with a schedule though, a rough schedule for when school re-opens to keep myself on track.
Okay, so.
When school ends at 3, I'll reach home at around 4.30.
So, from 4.30-5, I slack around the house.
5-6, YLBFB.
6-7, I go and runrunrun downstairs. Or skip. Or whatever, just make sure I exercise.
7-8+, dinner.
From then, homework. And then when I'm done, spend whatever time left on the computer.
11- SLEEP. [Latest, 12.]
When school ends at 1, I'll have training. Or I'll have to go my grandmother's house. So, there's not really any point. Sigh.
Meh. This is going to just be for reference. I don't think I'll actually follow it. :X
Well, at least I'm trying.
Maybe not hard enough, but it's a start.
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